malu tapi mahu

hye2 n Assalamualaikum ..
oke hari ni topik mcm biase tpi laen skit  lh .. ni cter psal prasaan aq kt owg yg aq syg .. mse akq aq on9 tdi aq ad trbce dia tlis 1 status ni tpi aq x tau lh status 2 utk siapa tpi yg pnting mmg aq trse kt status 2 wlpn bkn utk aq kott .. as truely what i want 2 say it i still love his n i still miss him .. tapi aq x tau mcm mne aq nk ckp ngn dia balek yg aq still syg kn dia .. aq tkot ble aq ckp dia yg x sudi .. hmm kalo aq pendam lme2 tkot owg len dh kebas tpi kalo aq ckp pown tkot kna bengang ngn dia .. guyz anybody want 2 help me ?? oke msti kowg akn tnye sape kn .. mcm biase owg yg aq mgkn trusted blh gnti kn arwah ex aq uh Faizal Ibrahim .. oke DAMN SHITT ! msti trkjut kn .. oke mmg aq prnh ckp kt kowg trutme kt piqah,tasha,razan,sara sume .. oke aq tau kowg akn mrh aq sbb kowg kate peyjal x ssuai ngn aq .. oke fine kalo ckp luar mne pown dlm hati aq sape jewk yg tau melaenkn aq n tuhan shje .. aq mmg nk usha dia blek tpi aq seram tkot dia x trima aq blek .. tdi aq mc8 ngn abg aq pown dia ckp dia x ksh kalo aq nk relation blek ngn peyjal tpi dia bkn nk tlg aq kew ap .. sket hti btol ngn abg aq ni ! esk sklh tpi aq x brani nk tatap wajah dia yg mgkn mnje + gdik pgi2 .. sbb aq akn rndu sgle yewk ble dia wt mka mcm uh .. hmm kalo dia bce post ni aq just nk ckp kt dia yg aq still syg dia n rndu sume kngn aq ngn dia slme ni .. kalo sya ckp sya nk wat balek relation sya ngn awk , ap respon awk ? oke just that only .. 
salam ikhlas cinta dari Balqis Abd Jalil <3 :')